Okay i took MC today, didnt go to work. What a waste of money.
then i realised how i felt i needed to control my life like yknow? saw so many sad and unhappy with life faces, i just felt so shitty all of a sudden. like how i wont be able to do what i love when i grow up. to be stuck in something i dont like, i mean we live life once you know?!? wouldnt it be sad and wasted if we did something we didnt like at all, to drag our butts every damn day to a place we dont want to be? the thought of that just makes me, UGH ticked off. i cannot dont do anything about this.. i know im over reacting or some sort and people still say im still young and stuff blabla, but i know people who knows what they want to do when they grow up!! like already! okay i should stop ranting. no matter how much i rant no one will know exactly how i feel, :/ well. okay, it'll get better. its all in the mind nigga!


Remembering that i am going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking i have something to lose.